I think one of the more interesting things that has happened the last 15-35 years is that I was always labeled this creepy pervert.

From High School on I’d only ask people sexual questions, making them uncomfortable. I’d ask girls everything imaginable in a time when no one was.

I was a first mover pervert, who knew what I was interested in early on. I even wanted to be a sex therapist because sex and relationships fascinated me….especially weird ones.

I’d ask girls I knew to flash me before the nude selfie. I’d ask for written accounts of their sex and their masturabtion. For the most part, they’d collaborate with me and we’d work together on satiating my creepy pervert curiosity.

Then I’d share stories with them, normalizing other weirdos, exposing them to porn…

One of my first jobs was writing porn reviews, then porn catalogs, and friends of mine weren’t allowed to hang out with me. Legit cucked motherfuckers whose wives wouldn’t let me hang out with them. I’d get blamed for the whores they fucked at bachelor parties, because I was “that guy” and new whores.

Then I started the site, where I shared porn, fetishes, weirdos with all of you…which got me labeled as an actual pornographer. I got banned from GOOGLE ads, meaning I didn’t make the millions other bloggers did. I got banned from Amazon’s affiliate program. I was banned off every social networking platform multiple times until I gave up because they are a waste of time…even though I knew they were just porn sites polarizing their storyline….

Then all of a sudden….everyone around me is far bigger pervert than I ever was and I remain the same level pervert and I’m wholesome. Porn is normalized, it’s advertised on GOOGLE and youtube all day, everyone wants to be a sex worker…and I feel like I am in some kind of twilight zone…

Some alienated and disenfranchised pervert, watching the entire world around him turn far more perverted than he ever was, yet still not considered mainstream enough to make fucking bank off this shit, while people considered mainstream doing far worse than this shit are making bank.

I’m not in a poor me state of mind…I don’t do that victim shit. I’ve come to terms with my failings and my alienation of being a weirdo pervert. I don’t try to start support groups, activism and I don’t want to start a movement for perverts from the past being out-perverted by 18 year olds on TIKTOK. Crying for inclusion and equality like some kind of woman.

It is just weird, that I’m at a point in life, where I can look back on vague alcohol soaked moments I rememeber and see how far things have come, or gone, or whatever….where being a creepy pervert keeps you the creepy pervert….yet everyone around you is substantially more perverted.

I’ve seen this happen…and I think the first time I saw it was about 15 years ago when one of the wives who barred her husband from hanging with me was trying to recruit a gangbang at a wedding in a WTF moment…that made me think “maybe internet porn is trickling into the housewives who stay at home all day doing nothing”….which has become whatever the fuck is going on now…it’s all so fucking weird.

I feel like an old timer who watched his radio turn into a TV, then into a computer, that he can use as a video phone to talk to his family from the old folks home he’s dying of COVID in….

I blame the internet….

Evolution or some shit…but I really should have been at the forefront of that shit…the porn billionaire on private jets who’s been on the cusp of this shit for the last 15 -20 years…but unfortunatley, I never wanted to be a pornographer. That shit is trash. It just turns out that EVERYONE else wants to be a pornographer and don’t care that it’s trash.

Here are some stepLINKS in the morning…

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